Another day of eating, shopping and
just hanging out with my daughter. The food was okay, the shopping was
short and as always the spending time together was great, I love my Mija and
anytime spent with her is always enjoyable. I guess for the most part of
it even though I may joke about it I really look forward to our days together
however brief they are. Cause they keep me grounded through all the past
memories of sadness.
Today started out pretty much the way it usually does with the wake up calls and the long prodding of the need to get started to get the day on it's way, but as usual there was the hiccups that always to get in the way and slow things down. If only we could get back to the days of yore so to speak. When it was a happier time and the earlier starts get us through a fuller day, oh of the days of yore where have you gone. So back to reality now and as usual our day begins after 2 p.m. we still fit it breakfast/lunch then off to the shopping spree of necessities. After which it is time for another food run and back to my Mija's house to finish off the day with eating, movies and the occasional rip roaring game of Uno.
In the past there was more involved due to the earlier start, but most of all cause there was less things slowing us down. After eating breakfast we would shop and return to my house to watch the latest Blu-ray I bought then between 6 to a 8 we would head back to drop off Mija at home of course after a dinner run o the way home. Those were the good old days and I really wish we can find our way back to those days once again. I miss it more so cause of it was way to just kick back and forget about the loss of my son.
Well I don't want to really dwell on this too long but it has been an up and down battle with the sense of loss. It has only been 7 yrs but at times I feel like it has been 10 and of course on the worst end of the story, when that little thing that triggers a memory that sends you spinning uncontrollably downward. I really appreciate my daughter being there and being so strong through it all or at least showing it for my benefit. Well I hope this little story gives you a brief look into life. Thanks for your time.
