Here we Go again

     Funny I had started this a few years ago and never really got started besides the title itself.  Kind of funny that the title still fits even after all this time.  Without going into too much details it has been a quite interesting past couple of years including a brief stay in the hospital.   Although it was a little more traumatic then I had been used to in the past and of course the stay was a little longer.  I really have to say aside from the multiple times they had to change my IV  over the period of my 2 week stay, I was well taken care of  and most of the food was pretty good too.  So after a few weeks of recovering to be able to go back to work, in which I had mixed feeling about but nevertheless I had to get back to work soon.  

     After everything was back to normal again and I was back to my routine  of working all week and getting together with my daughter twice a week.  As time went on I started to realize how much I really appreciated our little get together more and more even though they were mainly shopping trips with a meal here or there and of course a little gaming when it was possible.  But then my daughter started to budgeting our shopping visits to give us the opportunity to have free days  on weekends to pick a nicer restaurant and then hang out afterwards.  

     As I get older and am starting to have more issues with my health I realize I have to make it as special as possible spending time with my daughter cause only God knows how much longer I will be around.  I have just learn to take it just one day at a time like they always say.  I only hope that I will be around for a long time so that I will be able to continue having fun with my daughter.  

     One thing that I have noticed more and more is I am getting more and more attached to my daughter that I need to at least hear her voice once or twice a day.  We do text from time to time but our schedules and a little out of whack with her sleeping through the day and me being at work and trying to squeeze in as much I can before nodding off for the night.  I like living alone and having my privacy but it is quite lonely at times and those are the times I really wish she would call just to see how I am doing.  

     With us now into the year 2020 I can only hope things continue to grow stronger between us and all of our health remains to be good as possible for the remainder of the year.  It is only getting started but one can only hope for the best.  I am really going to try keeping this up as it is good to let it out even if  I may be the only be the one reading it.  At the very least I will help me to learn how to make things better.  So until my next session I will be always remembering all that makes my life a little more pleasant to get through.          

A New Day a New Beginning

    Another day of eating, shopping and just hanging out with my daughter.  The food was okay, the shopping was short and as always the spending time together was great, I love my Mija and anytime spent with her is always enjoyable.  I guess for the most part of it even though I may joke about it I really look forward to our days together however brief they are.  Cause they keep me grounded through all the past memories of sadness.  

     Today started out pretty much the way it usually does with the wake up calls and the long prodding of the need to get started to get the day on it's way, but as usual there was the hiccups that always to get in the way and slow things down.  If only we could get back to the days of yore so to speak.  When it was a happier time and the earlier starts get us through a fuller day, oh of the days of yore where have you gone.  So back to reality now and as usual our day begins after 2 p.m.  we still fit it breakfast/lunch then off to the shopping spree of necessities.  After which it is time for another food run and back to my Mija's house to finish off the day with eating, movies and the occasional rip roaring game of Uno. 

     In the past there was more involved due to the earlier start, but most of all cause there was less things slowing us down.  After eating breakfast we would shop and return to my house to watch the latest Blu-ray I bought then between 6 to a 8 we would head back to drop off Mija at home of course after a dinner run o the way home.  Those were the good old days and I really wish we can find our way back to those days once again.  I miss it more so cause of it was way to just kick back and forget about the loss of my son.  

     Well I don't want to really dwell on this too long but it has been an up and down battle with the sense of loss.  It has only been 7 yrs but at times I feel like it has been 10 and of course on the worst end of the story, when that little thing that triggers a memory that sends you spinning uncontrollably downward.  I really appreciate my daughter being there  and being so strong through it all or at least showing it for my benefit.  Well I hope this little story gives you a brief look into life. Thanks for your time.